It's been a long day

Sometimes, you just want to go home.

And that’s alright.

By then, you’ve probably made some friends, some that are closer to you than others, people you can sit with at lunch, and people you know from a club, a sport.You really like these people. There are times you might don’t know what to say to them, or you just don’t know what they are talking about, but you have a fun time together.

So why do you feel so sad and lonely?

It’s because you feel like you have to pretend. Be nice to everyone, but that might not be the real you.

Then why do you act like this?

Because you are scared. You are scared that the people around you will reject you because you are not like them. That they don’t want you anymore. You just don’t want to mess this up.Because you like those people but how do you know how far you can go, how far you will be accepted.And this should be your year, right? Everything should be a dream, right?

What if it’s not?  What if it’s good, but not what you expected it to be.

You will cry. It is because you miss your family, your friends. It is because you want your old life back.And that’s alright.

It’s alright when you try your best but it just doesn’t work out.  Cry afterwards but there’s one thing, that is not alright.

Giving up.